Man in the Mirror

Have you ever felt like you are totally useless in the sense

where you are unable to anything right?

Or

Just that the one thing you think you can do best isn't all

that impresive to the world after all?

Well, ladies and gentlemen,

welcome to the world of In-Se-Cur-Ity!

A jambalaya of emotions filled with

Disgust, Jealousy, Hatred, Anger, Shame and full of

"I am not Good enough"talks.

Confessions?

Yup, I feel that way all the time...

For me, it's my so called "talent" in singing.

I usually feel challenged whenever I hear someone sing and I want to try as hard as possible

to top him or her in hopes of fishing out a compliment to just feel...Secure!

But to my surprise and my past records, I usually get embarrased in front of others.

You see, people do come up and tell me that I can sing and that lifts me beyond cloud 9 but when I am compared, or just being told that I am not good enough, I will get totally dishearted.

Why am I feeling this way?

Why do I constantly try so hard to prove myself in front of others?

It's just because I realise that I am not comfortable in my own skin.

Jesus did say that we are created in His image and hence, we should feel special...

And with regards to what I can or cannot do, I shouldn't feel handicaped as I learn from my friend, Yean Ching, that I should do everything in His name, to glorify and edify His Kingdom.

I am still learning to feel this way.

It was just yesterday I felt challenged at a choir practice but hey, as far as I should be concerned, tommorow as I will be singing in a choir, I just wanna do my best for Him without regards whether I stand out from the rest,

what is important is that My Lord is proud of me...

And that should be all that matters.

Ps... Don't be such a scrouge with compliments...dish them out whenever possible cos it helps build others... Encourage others if you want others to encourage you as well... :p