Hmmmm....What is Love? A Tribute to my Forever Love, Jeanne.

Well....
Have u ever loved someone till you just could ignore all of their weaknesses,
and all that you could see is the beauty that lies in their eyes...
Have you ever loved somebody so much that no matter how painful it is to love, you would still go on loving him/her...
Have you ever felt so different, as though there is such a tangable presence when that special someone is around....
Well, once, there was a girl who felt the exact way towards me.
But foolishly, I ignored it thinking that I know whats best for both of us...
You see, She was this perfect girl envisioned by me. She is interlectual, has great leadership qualities, a sports woman, and well, she is gentle, spirirted girl....To me, she is the most beautiful girl that I have ever met...
And as I observe from afar, all I could do is just admire her because to me, a girl like her deserves someone much better than me and I couldn't stand a chance.
Days turn to months and our friendship grew and with constant exchanges of sms, I grew fonder and fonder towards her...
Then, one day I discover that she actually have feelings for me and too soon, I tried to have a relationship with her only to find out that she is only hoping that we start from being close friends...
I agreed but after awhile, I guess with my insecurity, I decided that a line should be drawn as to where we should be,I ended up making a mess...I ended not just a potential relationship but a friendship...
I told her of all my insecurities and the truth about my life, my dark pasts, my everything.....Even so, she still like me for who I am.....But my mind was selfishly stubborn and I led her through the most painful journey in her life...At those moments, she only promised me that she would wait for me till the whole ordeal is over...
Those times,I ignore her every deeds, her ways of trying to understand me....
She tried to build me up, to make a hero out of me and I try to put out every fire that she tried to light in my life....
The pinnacle of this disasterous event was my accusations towards her that brought up an uproar and soon, our friendship turned into ashes with no chance of resurection....I even hurt others around me...At that moment, I knew I still had feelings for her....
Am I too late to humble myself to ask for forgiveness?
I could understand that right now, all that I say would worth nothing more than mere words but if you are reading this Jeanne, I really love you....
This words come from the very bottom of my heart, I couldn't let you go.
I was foolish once and I know that there were many things I should not have done but I beg of your forgiveness....
Please, all this time, I couldn't stop thinking how could I mend your heart...All i could do is to lament day and night hoping that a second chance would arrive.....
I just need one chance, one last to prove myself to you....
Please, I'll be right here waiting for you.