Incredibly extraordinarily exceptionally....OK la

Well today I was assigned to go to my mum's office to "jaga" the office while a group of people from Komas will be shooting a video about racism...
At first I was a bit shy when all of these "adults" with serious looking faces shooked my hands but later, we were chattering away...
What astounds me most is that they were shooting a video about racism and discrimination, I was able to meet and chat with some of the most talented, creative and not to mention nice people...
They are so humble that I could hardly imagine...
The actors and actresses are just part timers with a couple who are law lecturers....
It was a great opportunity to learn so much from them especially the director and project manager....Raymond and Shabnum( she is hot by the way)
The best part is I get to interview the producer MIEN who is super funny and interlectual....Its my first interview but it was indeed an enriching one where we talked about racial discrimination and stuff...
But the best is that the whole day of shooting looks like on of those reality shows where u are behind the scenes...
Everything about the shooting was fine until one of the actres which is going through emotional distress call its quits...She broke down and the producer who is the most patient person I have ever seen just waited and tried a few things and just kept the ball rolling... He was just so pro....
At the end of the day, I could not just stop but sing praises to the whole team for their effort in making a 5 minute video...They took their roles seriously and did their own part fantastically...
Congrats to the team...
as for me...today is just one of the many days that has given me a bigger preview of what I hope and think that I would like to do....

I wanna go Home!!!

What am I talking about...
Ain't I right now at home?
Well.....Ya it's just that I am missing something more homely and I am still asking what is it?
Could it be in the sense of missing a friend? Or a place...
Soon I realise I miss Jesus...I really do...
Like the song " I'm just too far from where you are and I wanna come home"
I wanna be the prodigal son but I realise I don't even have enough guts to go home and face Him...
I wanna be the me I used to be....
I need Him yet I just feel so distant...
Church, CF, discipleships have become so meaningless...
It's like a body that lacks a soul....
I just wanna be able to form the once upon a time relationship with Him once again but I just don't know how...
I am like a ship drifting in the sea of confussion....Ever drifting, ever lost, ever unown and unhomed...
Hmmm....It's strange that I could type this out cos I don't know how help is gonna come....I wanna go home but I just don't know the way...Please...bring me home...