Well well well.....

Today is like any typical day in school where I will go through the toils and tribulations. Math was gruelling and chemistry was a mess..... Later we had meeting and boy, what a ding-dong just watching the prefects debating about their own rights and standing firm in each of their selfish beliefs..... Then it was off to lunch with my sis but hmmm.... things weren't well, she was kinda hostile to me and I really need to know what is going on, I am sure that you are familiar with the feeling of doing something wrong without realising it but you will get certain sneers and stuffs like that, it's scary..... If you are reading this SIS, I love you and I hope we can just clear things up....... Anyway, I just hope that this week's EM will go smoothly and hope that all turns out well....Gotta chow, chem test is in 2 days and I have litterarily a Million things to do.... Thanks for withstanding my endless blabbering

FInally...I am back!

Huh....I am back....
Yup... miss me?
Afraid not, hahahahaah....
Anyway, I was kinda busy with things around me,

Exams( huh dun you start it!)
Evengelistic meeting,EM
Prefects camp( Thank God it ended)

Yup, actually I kinda complained day and night about going for it ( My captain Xi Mun, she ain't one those whom I totally love to hang around) but it turned out to be fun, I enjoyed the sessions and being a part of the commitee and as a facilitator, I was so privalaged to bully my juniors!!! LOL!!!! I was also enjoying the fact that Xi Mun was talking to me nicely, I can get used to that. The best part is hanging out with my fellow prefects despite the fact I have to stay up till 5 in the morn and wake up an hour later.......

Now, I am in the midst of my bath, I have just finished the essential part, now is just to wait for my conditioner to fully seep into my hair before rinsing off....EM band practice was good, at least I didn't sing out of tune and I think we all were worshiping God....

Ok, I think I need to hit the books already, see you soon diary, I will update you soon,
Bye and Love you (This is the first time I tell you I love you so appreciatte it!)

Haih.......Girls.....

Well I suppose everyone is familiar with this particular creation of GOD.

Yup, thats right, girls......the ones created from our flesh and bones....

I mean face it, to a girl, you are forever wrong no matter what you do if she doesn't get it her way and they have a way of making others think like so too......

No offence to girls, I like girls, I like being around them and well sometimes there are some words that are tabooed only to guys.... I mean c'mon, be fair.....

For example, a girl can tell another girl that that the dress make her look fat but not a guy......

And the worst of all is this, you get blamed for everything.....and I mean everything.

They are also created in a way where reverse psychology seems to be an in-built programme, ready to launch it's deadly arrows at it's victims.

They'll cry to make you feel bad, they will not talk to you so that it will make you feel disgusted about yourself.......

Help!!!!

Really, I just hope that girls would only understand us guys more.....I know we are created differently but that is what makes all of us so special......to be able to co-operate and to give way to one another.......

But whatever it is, girls, I still respect you guys...I mean girls and I really just wanted to voice my point of view.Guys are not perfect and I know, it's just that I need to blurp things out to lighten the weight placed upon my heart.

Thank for listening or reading perhaps......

33 children?

Well as you can see, this is Angel and her bestest friend Christina....... She is my soon to be wife(in my dreams of course) and has promised to deliver 33 children for specifically 11 sons, 12 daughters and 10 more with the gender of her choice...... Hahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahhahahaahhaha Ok I have to tribute to a lot of people.... For example, this is Irene

She is my Christian Fellowship secretary and boy, she is the best I have ever seen with great administration skills....I thank God for her or else my minutes will be like.....never mind.

Next is an ugly chinaman who hail from Malaysia but has nationality crisis. He is an avid supporter of his ancestrial roots that hail from China...

Kai Yit is my neighbour in school who constantly helps me in math( cos I am weak) and He is one of the most dependable friend at times of trouble.....

emmmmm.....Ok I will update more of my friends later..........

Actually I am kinda malas to write summore larrrrrr......

See you tomolo.

TIred!@#$$%^

Hmmm...just reached home and oh boy, What a day it has been! Started of with a morning usual prefects meeting,I had to be there or else they'll complain about this uncommitted Vice Captain. Then it was the usual boring Monday assembly where our school brag about the acheivements and stuffs like that. Later, "Ahoy Maties, Its time for our listening test." Suddenly....."Ah.........my purse is stolen" said Angel. After the whole day in school(Thank God it ended) it was to the police station for a police report.......(Talk about effieciency).It took us more than an hour just to lodge a police report about a stolen purse......Don't get me wrong, I am just trying to imply how detailed the police were and that we should give our fullest support to them. It is about 3.30pm and it was worship practice, as usual I am given comments like the Idols and the best part is I have one who looks like Randy Jackson but talks like Simon Cowell and one who acts like Paula Abdul but is a guy and oh, he is Paul Lau. How ironic!!! And now, I am finally home, resting and surfing and blogging so thats it.....I have released all the tension I have. Thanks for allowing me to blurp all the baggages on my chest......... (I have just nothing else to post except for my petty complaints so thanks anyway)

The Stars of my life(part 2)

Ok, This is my continuatuion of tributes to those dear to my heart..... These are a group of girls I truly appreciatte Sue Yee, Su Sin and Chee Quen. They Had been the elites in my class and the ones who constantly bully me During group assignments and stuffs....... Hahahahahahaha......but I still love them very much though! [ Zooming in, this is Chee Quen, The first ever person whom I discover shares the same birthday as I do,Isn't she privalaged? Please take a closer look into this picture. Yup, its none other then my classmates,The Noisiest, Brightest, and I dare say, Most United class I've ever been into. [ Never underestimate this bunch of wacky people.....It consists of top scorers and talented personals......so, what are you waiting for, Collect them all...

Life is like a box of chocolate

I was reading an interesting story online just the other day and I discover it was about a life of a homosexual.He is trying his best to be come straight but.....can he really do it? You read it and be the judge. Life is like a box of chocolate, you’ll never know what you are going to get. I truly believe in this saying. Some may pick the good, creamy ones, while some may get bitter and hard ones. Back to when I took my chances in picking a chocolate, I got a rather odd one. The age 13 marks my early teenage where I encounter so many new experiences. Being in high school, puberty developing and a new life beginning to unravel, an odd feeling starts to form as well. I often get all flushed and shy in front of boys, especially those who are really attractive and my friends, or rather most of them which I am close to are girls. Talk about being popular.At this point of my life, I realize I am attracted to men. I start to fantasies about them, thinking and hoping to explore into their unknowns and what is beneath it all. My eyes are often transfixed upon those manly, buffed up boys but knowing it to be abnormal; I try to shut this behavior off. Being a gentle boy, I am often given names such as sissy,”pondan” and so on. After repeatedly being tease, I started to accept it this identity and soon, the door of curiosity opened. I longed for experimentation on my sexuality. It’s not long before a classmate of mine approach me and that was when my curiosity was then, satisfied. It was in an old, moldy toilet, we embraced our first kiss and from then on, we embarked on a romantic liaison of oral emission and orgasm peeking experiences. It was at my most rebellious stage in my life too this happened. And mum decided to sent me to church for a so called “rehabilitation”. I was reluctant at first but as soon as I was accepted to the fellow brothers in my church, I come to realize that I am accepted just the way I am. My gentleness was never questioned instead everyone tried to toughen me up. It was at the age of 15, I took up my guts to open up to those around me. Stepping into the pastors' office wasn’t easy. The fear of rejection and condemnation played around my mind but I made up my mind to give it a shot. I shared about my past to him. The whole time, my eyes were constantly flowing with tears. I felt like a little boy admitting my wrongdoings to the father. But after the whole session, I feel free. I feel like a huge rock has been lifted and I know I have someone to bear it with me. The whole time, I realize what I’ve done was sinful and just knowing that salvation is waiting right there to say it’s alright, brought me back to the right track. It has been years since that day. And boy what a journey it has been. It’s never easy waking up every morning facing my struggles and bondages. Everyday is like a battle I have to face. Times of temptation often visit and I admit, falling has been my frequent record. But do note that God is not a fairy godmother. He isn’t going to lift up the wand and change you from who you are in an instant. I realize my life needs to go through tests and trials in order to shape me into the man I am supposed to be. All I know is that no matter how many times I fall, a hero will always rise again. Life is filled with choices. God loves us so much that he gives us the freedom to choose how we would want our lives to be. But “freedom” is to be free to choose what is right and not wrong, which will only encage us in a pit of guilt and shame for life. Let me indulge you with another new discovery in my life. Lately, I found out that a girl, who by the way, knows of my past, has put forth her feelings towards me. It means the world to me because knowing my past and to be able to experience this is definitely a blessing from God. Who knows, one day, I might be walking down the aisle with the woman I love. Life is like a box of chocolate. You might get an odd one, with an odd taste but you’ll never know that if you persevere to the very end, the last bite might be a bitter sweet ending. I have still a long journey to go but for know, I am glad to know that I am given a second chance and I shall taste that last sweet bite at the end of my long and winding road.

tong hua(fairy tale)

Have you ever heard of a fairy tale?

I have.

Each one has been my favourite and I love each ending, the part when Prince Charming leads the princess in a kiss and as everyone says, they lived happily ever after.

I believe each one of us dreamed to have such a beautiful ending in our lives.

But many times, our lives don't end up like that. It's often hoping for something which will never be ours and crying over it. It's a one in a million chance to live like Cinderella.

I was currently introduced to a beautiful song entitled "Tong Hua" which means Fairytale.

It's a song by Malaysian singer, Micheal Wong. Even though I am no fan of chinese hits, the lyrics and the music of this song captured my imagination.

The song goes:
Icouldn't remember how long
I've not heard
Of that favourite fairytale of yours
I've been thinking for a long time,
Impatiently
I ask if I've done anything wrong
You cried and told me
That fairytales are merely lies
And that I am not your Prince Charming
And you've never realised that
When you said you love me
The sky and the stars in my life has
Been lightened up

I am ready to change into Your fairytale
The angel of your dreams
With my outstretched arms
Like wings, to protect you
But you must believe,
Believe that that our lives would be like a fairytale
Where happiness will always be our end.....

I agree,
Its soo romantic.
The music video was even more touching where the leading lady died of luekimia(how do you spell it?) when they start to fall in love.( go check it out, a must see)

Will we ever be able to live in our so called "fairytale"?
How do you define your fairytale?
It could be just holding the hands of your loved one, looking out of the window or it could also mean embarking on a journey to the unknown, just the two of you.

As for me, I have only a modest wish which is that I will be there with the one I love till death do us part. Like the lyrics, I wish i could promise whoever my love would be that I would be that angel of her dreams, covering her from harm and embrace her with my love.

So,
Have you found Your "Tong Hua"?

The first cut is the deepest!

(This is dedicated to the special ones in my life) Ever remember the time when someone said something no one is suppose to know? Recall the time when the slip of the tongue caused all the pain and sorrow? I know how it feels like and what is it like to go through all that. It's like a person being stabbed and its a fresh cut, your heart aches, calling for help. All the pain is going through your head and it feels like you could just die there. Well, the bible says that our tongue is like a double-edged sword. It cuts both ways..... I am learning how to control my tongue, discerning when I am supposed to open my mouth. But to err, is human......I am still on a journey of renewing myself and of self improvement. TO all those whom I've hurt verbally, in no matter one way or another, i beg of your forgiveness. ANd that comes from the heart...

The Stars in my Life...(Part 1)

Hmmmm...... yup
This is not, I repeat this is not my boyfriend.....
He is Kenny Wong SIew Foo.
The guy who sits in front of me and he is the most gentle soul in the whole entire universe.
ANd I treat him like my bro in our circle of brotherhood....
Hahahahaha
Anyway, he has the talent for Grafittis and a total artist,
Leornardo da Vinci and Michealangelo,
Step back!!!
He is just one of the many good friends I have that i happened to be blessed with.

I have my sister too...... (not the biological one....ehem)
Check her out.....


Yup i noe, she is soooo pretty right but I am sooooo sorry,
She is taken. hahahahaha
She is
my confidant,
my friend,
my soulmate,
my driver at times,
my duet partner,
my sister,
my classmate,
my church member,
my CF commitee,
my sms partner,
my personal safe deposit( not money, just secrets between the two of us )
AND
vice versa.
In short

She is

Adorable
Nice
Gracious
Elegant
Loveable



Anyway here is another picture of my other friend.
Her name is Wai Jin.
She is my class monitor.......not to mention....errrr.....she will kill me if she ever reads....lol
Anyway, she is a sweet girl which I enjoy to be with.
Let me tell you something, she is an intelectual sports woman who has leadership in her. She is a full package of extremely good qualities so do get to noe her.

Anyway, i will share bout my other stars soon,(not free and dun have their pictures yet)
Check out part two of " The Stars of my life".

Can I sing?

Well ... hmmm.. I've been wondering that if I can sing. It has been my childhood Dream to be able to stand in front of everyone to sing but..... Some said that I can while some, well I believe they have been watching to much of Simon Cowell. The point is I really need people to give me truthful and dependable comments.... I myself is having disillusions bout my voice... And the wost thing is I couldn't judge my own voice..... So if u think You are that dependable person, don't hesitate to send me a comment on my voice, my choice of songs as well as the most important part of all......do you think I'll ever make it?

MALYSIAN IDOL 2?

WELL JUST DROP BY TO ASK YOU A QUESTION. WAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MALAYSIAN IDOL? DO YOU THINK ANYONE WOULD BE SUCCESFUL IN THIS SHOW IN OUR COUNTRY? I KNOW PEOPLE LIKE FANTASIA AND KELLY AND REUBEN ARE SUPER SUCCESSFUL BUT IN MALAYSIA? AND DO YOU THINK PEOPLE JUDGE BASED ON TALENT OR THE FACE? LETTING YOU ON A SECRET( AACTUALLY IT WONT BE A SECRET NO MORE IF I TELL YOU) I WANT TO JOIN MALAYSIAN IDOL BUT THE FEAR OF REJECTION IS WELL LETS JUST SAY I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO MAKE IT. WAT DO U THINK?

MYSELFEDNESS

HEY JOURNAL SORRY TO KEEP YOU WAITING. ITS MY WRONG.... ANYWAY, ARE YOU READY TO EMBARK ON A JOURNEY OF SELF-DISCOVERY WITH ME? I MUST WARN YOU, THIS JOURNEY IS HIGHLY HAZARDOUS AND YOU, AS A JOURNAL, MUST BE ABLE TO COPE WITH MY CONSTANT NAGING AND COMPLAINTS, AS WELL AS MY ENDLESS BLABBERINGS. IF YOU AGREE, AS THEY SAY, LET'S GET IT STARTED!