Redirect yourself...

Hey this blog has become quite rojak and not really that nice anymore....
So i made a new blog...

http://www.dayliedose.blogspot.com

Enjoy...

Man in the Mirror

Have you ever felt like you are totally useless in the sense

where you are unable to anything right?

Or

Just that the one thing you think you can do best isn't all

that impresive to the world after all?

Well, ladies and gentlemen,

welcome to the world of In-Se-Cur-Ity!

A jambalaya of emotions filled with

Disgust, Jealousy, Hatred, Anger, Shame and full of

"I am not Good enough"talks.

Confessions?

Yup, I feel that way all the time...

For me, it's my so called "talent" in singing.

I usually feel challenged whenever I hear someone sing and I want to try as hard as possible

to top him or her in hopes of fishing out a compliment to just feel...Secure!

But to my surprise and my past records, I usually get embarrased in front of others.

You see, people do come up and tell me that I can sing and that lifts me beyond cloud 9 but when I am compared, or just being told that I am not good enough, I will get totally dishearted.

Why am I feeling this way?

Why do I constantly try so hard to prove myself in front of others?

It's just because I realise that I am not comfortable in my own skin.

Jesus did say that we are created in His image and hence, we should feel special...

And with regards to what I can or cannot do, I shouldn't feel handicaped as I learn from my friend, Yean Ching, that I should do everything in His name, to glorify and edify His Kingdom.

I am still learning to feel this way.

It was just yesterday I felt challenged at a choir practice but hey, as far as I should be concerned, tommorow as I will be singing in a choir, I just wanna do my best for Him without regards whether I stand out from the rest,

what is important is that My Lord is proud of me...

And that should be all that matters.

Ps... Don't be such a scrouge with compliments...dish them out whenever possible cos it helps build others... Encourage others if you want others to encourage you as well... :p

As Church Bells Rang, I See Someone Enter 6 Feet Under.

Its been a tiresome weekend...
25th of March 2006,
A date wher I have endurred the best and the worst in life...
It was such a bitter sweet week...
My best friend cum Pastor, Ps. Noah is getting hitched on that day, a wedding much anticipated for as we have been notified since last year September...
It seemed like eternity then, only to realise that the said day is going to be.....today!!!!
I was initially asked to sing at the wedding, and the couple asked me to sing their favourite song, a Rod Stewart classic, Have I told You Lately.
And at the very last minute... He asked me to be his best man or rather one of his best men...
It was really exciting....
Waiting patiently the next day, as i was watching the telly, my friend Richard smsed...

It writes:-

Bad news...Swee Kee just passed away...

funeral will be at 8 tonight.

All I could do at that moment was cry...At that point of time, I wished that there was a missing word after his name, I wish it wasn't him but after I made several phone calls, I realised it was him... A 19 year old boy, gone with the wind just because of some unknown reason of a viral attack that entered his lungs and heart.

I was so lost, a wedding is coming up in a couple of hours while I was torn deep down.

Where do I go?

Where should I go?

I ended up t the wedding putting on my very best, singing my heart out and received compliments and encouragement to do Malaysian Idol but deep down lies a broken soul of a departed friend.

I was given a chance to visit him by his coffin, speechless, I just send my sincere condolences and left as I could not stand looking at him and his parents...Its just to heavy on me as I need to prepare a youth wedding celebration...

After the whole youth thing ended, filled with laughter and slapsticks, I went home, emotionally drained.

I laughed a little and cried a little but not just a little.

Remembering the moments I last saw him,it was so funny...

Just as he was leaving my house after a christmas party, he took home a whole box of chicken wings after much debate with Irene, saying that this would be his breakfast the next day...

And since then, we never met till then...

A good friends we've lost, like the mist in the rain,

Your picture remains, but not in a frame,

In my heart it will be sealed with a promise,

In paradise we'll meet again.

To the late Shawn Yap Swee Kee...

Our Local Music Industry...Creame of the Crop or Kream of the Crap?

Working in my law firm only comes with one perk, that is being able to listen to the radio all day long....
And being a normal youth, who wouldn't tune in to Hitz.fm which is filled with the latest hippest hits...
Having the radio from 9 to 5 means I get to hear loads of songs and adds as well....
Nearly every hour, listeners will be bombarded with messages asking the public to support piracy...opps....support the original in which I don't intend to most of the time...

Then it dawn on me,
Why aren't Malaysians supporting our Local Acts?

"We are the winners of last years Blast Off Competition but I bet you don't know us" says an unknown member of a band named K-Town Clan...
I have never heard of their music but from what I've heard, it basically comprises of Rap.
Some of the better known Malysian Acts are Too Phat, Jason Lo aka JLo, Reshmonu and some others. The names I have just dished out are basically artist that are either in the Hip-Hop, Rock or just some sort of unknown genre that is basically a copy of something someone else did.

Is it because their music is not Good enough?
Or is it because we only listen to english songs sung people with blond hair?
For me personally, I am a big fan of ballads with a pinch of Rock and Hip-Hop to balance my taste but our local talents are really steriotypes. The things they do are so mundane. the music they produce have no, in the words of Simon Cowell, "The X-Factor".
The only make noise and just rhymes but none of which makes you sit and listen and hunger for more.
Malysian English music is so stagnant that they only produce music which is stuck to one Genre but what about the rest?
Do Malysians only like to listen to deafening music or are there more options to consider?
Will Malaysian English Acts ever make it BIG?

A question that will only be answered if Malaysians have faith to take the next step?

This is Not PORN!!!

Tonight I have to Confess that one of my many guilty pleasures is watching America's Next Top Model where these Chicks showcase their Bitchiness and strut of their God-given assets...
I am a big fan of the pictures taken especially this lot...

Here are pictures taken from the Garden of Eden.....

My Long Awaited.....Post

Ya ya...

"WHy you so long no Blog one?"

A common question posted to me....

Well.....

I have been working now a days and have absolutely no time to blog but given today....

Why not?

Ok....

So here is a the brief summary of my unforgetable moments between the last time I blog till now....

16th December 2005

Left for Korea with family and visited loads of places such as

Korea presidents house (Looks like some kings palace, infact the ancient one is just a few blocks away)

Dae Chang Gum Village which looks extremely cool but relatively small.....

Nami Island,

The infamous spot where the movie Winter Sonata was shot....

The place is super romantic and I wish to go there again with my....ehem...Any takers?

Korea's musuem of culture and....

Skiing of course....

Am not a good skier at all cos I fall amillion times but only skied 10 times....

Painful experience yet one I'll never forget....

But the best...

Snow....

I really get to see snow fall and snowflakes really are in a shape of a star.....

22nd December 2005

My tour to Hong Kong with Mr Lim,

Initially, i thought it's gonna be difficult with him but in the end,

He was the one that's the most co-operative of all....

He thought me loads during the journey,

I had fun especially in Disneyland,

But filled with Mainland Chinese in which I totally LOATHE for their indespicable attitude,

Its is a shame though we are of the same race and all....

The trip after all was manageable...

3rd January 2006

Well after a few days of rest it's time to find a real job,

Or rather one that pays,

I found a job as I suppose a general clerk come attachment in a legal firm,

JNHR, Advocates and Solicitors....

Kinda fit in already yet now....I am so loaded with work!!!

31 January 2006

My unexpected trip to Hong Kong again....

Cut the Whole damn story short.....

SsssssTtttttRrrrrEeeeeeSSsssssFULL!!!!!!!!!!!

especially when Disneyland rejects entry....

But thanks be to GOD (and I mean it)

My tour Group managed to go in.....

I thought my first visit full but that day,

MADNESS!!!!

2day,

Sitting at home, Typing this thing,

Uploading songs up My SONY MP3 player I won from Channel [V],

KEWLNESS!!!!

2molo,

Only God knows!!!!

Holy-Holid@y!!!`

Its only 3 weeks since my very last day in school and i am getting more and more restless everyday.....
I've been working at my aunt's for a week now...
It's easy going yet he hours are long and there is no holiday....
I've been working all week....
But it's just for this week....
Not too soon, I will be leading a tour to Hong Kong again....
But I am nervous this time...
I am preety afraid about screwing up...
I am leading a group of professionals this time rund and one of them,which I am quite aquainted with has a rather intriguing personality....
I just hope that I can do a fairly good job and just earn some extra pocket money and hoping that the tour runs smoothly....
Really stressed about it but in the wise proverbs written.....

In everything we do, lets submit it to God first...

So I will, so I will.....

Anyway, for all you readers, please do not ask me for souvenier as this is a working trip....

Anyhow, I would not forget to bring home goodies to share, that is if I get some income from the trip first....

the only consolation thus far, would be me being able to celebrate Christmas in Disneyland, Hong Kong.....

Ok..so see you guys when I am home.